From the things I do; and the things I don’t do. Maybe it’s the new medication. I just don’t know. I’ll stand in the middle of the living room looking around and thinking of all the things I need to do; and all the things I want to do. Then go and sit on my ass and “play” on my computer. My “outlook” is even depressed. I have and idea for something to do and don’t do anything. Even though I’ve had “exciting” days, I don’t really want another one. Or two. But sometimes my life seems so Mundane.
I get up in the morning and do all my “usual” shit. Get my “usual” chores done. Then it’s, like, 0900 or so. Time to shower. Then eat breakfast. Then keep myself busy for another day.
Maybe I’m just bored instead of depressed. But I don’t think so. I know Depression, having suffered it since about age 10. And being clinically diagnosed as having depression. Or maybe it’s because I’m Retired and haven’t made myself a plan yet? I don’t know. Could it be because I haven’t put sugar in my coffee in over a week? (Started using honey as I’ve documented before.)
And my “self talk” just isn’t working today.
Anywho, enough of that. Hell, I’m boring myself! Pretty much a “normal” day for me today. Didn’t get outside too much as it’s partially cloudy and cool. But when the sun does come out it feels really nice. Took the Dog for a walk. Made a run to the Post Office to pick up my new antenna. Made myself a couple of pieces of tilapia fried in butter & lemon juice, and some home grown peas and maters for dinner.
Sure wouldn’t mind winning the Lotto tonight!