From the things I do; and the things I donâ€™t do. Maybe itâ€™s the new medication. I just donâ€™t know. Iâ€™ll stand in the middle of the living room looking around and thinking of all the things I need to do; and all the things I want to do. Then go and sit on my ass and â€œplayâ€ on my computer. My â€œoutlookâ€ is even depressed. I have and idea for something to do and donâ€™t do anything. Even though Iâ€™ve had â€œexcitingâ€ days, I donâ€™t really want another one. Or two. But sometimes my life seems so Mundane.
I get up in the morning and do all my â€œusualâ€ shit. Get my â€œusualâ€ chores done. Then itâ€™s, like, 0900 or so. Time to shower. Then eat breakfast. Then keep myself busy for another day.
Maybe Iâ€™m just bored instead of depressed. But I donâ€™t think so. I know Depression, having suffered it since about age 10. And being clinically diagnosed as having depression. Or maybe itâ€™s because Iâ€™m Retired and havenâ€™t made myself a plan yet? I donâ€™t know. Could it be because I havenâ€™t put sugar in my coffee in over a week? (Started using honey as Iâ€™ve documented before.)
And my â€œself talkâ€ just isnâ€™t working today.
Anywho, enough of that. Hell, Iâ€™m boring myself! Pretty much a â€œnormalâ€ day for me today. Didnâ€™t get outside too much as itâ€™s partially cloudy and cool. But when the sun does come out it feels really nice. Took the Dog for a walk. Made a run to the Post Office to pick up my new antenna. Made myself a couple of pieces of tilapia fried in butter & lemon juice, and some home grown peas and maters for dinner.
Sure wouldnâ€™t mind winning the Lotto tonight!